It started a few days after i wrote my last entry. my father actually haven't work since the early of the year. i didn't actually tell anyone that problem, that problem really don't really bothers me much, i was only concentrating doing my things. until one day, when i open the fridge the was no food, i asked my mom why isn't she cooking. she tells me my father don't have any money. well... after a few days, the whole family was starving (except me of course, i have my own money and etc). This problem was starting to get over my head, and i told it to my cousin remy, about the problem. And here is what happen. My father did a forgery.
by my cousin ezam:
"Forged. My signature which is not mine, not even 20% of mine. Caught da culprit + evidence. The best thing is that the creature who forged this is my paternal uncle."
even worst, our house owner (yes, my father still rent a house even at that age, just a prove on how a loser he is) requested we to move out of the house on May since my fathers haven't pay anything. The pressure was high, while my father spend the day playing solitaire on his pc, watching tv, i was thinking in every little way on how to save the family. i have some money, which i was saving to pay up the PC that i have ordered (read my last entry if you dont know what im talking about) and some few more for opening my shop. i actually have found a place just near my house that i could rent a shop lot, it was dirt cheap, and the place was quite strategic as well.
it was a simple choice between my dreams or helping out my family.
long story short, i got this idea if my cousin could all together collect some money that i could borrow to pay up a deposit for a new house. well, they 'claim' they have collected some money, and even better they said it was not a loan that i need to pay back. so we search out for a new home to rent, my father found 1, he shows the house to my younger sister and brothers, they all said the don't like it cause it was dirty and old. (oh yea i was not at home that day, as usual meeting some client, posting some stuff, my father calls me he said he found a house). Asked my friend mustaqim if he was free to check the house with me, i found out the house was nice, it was cheap, spacious. i called remy and asked about the house that noon, he said for me to pay it first using my money. so settle it, afternoon receive a call from my father because he have a quarrel with my sister liyana, he beat her. Honestly im not interested in the 'family politics'. Im a biznesman, what really important to me are just result. And the result that i want is for my mom and little sister and brother to have a home. Half way paying and settle the stuff for the new home, remy txt'ed me and tell me the donation money is canceled.
Nice... now i lost all of my money for the shop.. and pc.
This year was hard for me, MOSTLY its not my problem at all, its just people dragging their problems with my life.
Month went by, it was hard, i manage to pay for the deposit of the house, not only that i also manage to pay up the PC, a lot of stuff happened. My friend jimmy najib send me a gift a few weeks before Ramandhan. I have to capture the pic using a webcam, my father sold the camera for some money.
how cool is this? :)
a week after that, i have a big fight with my father, about a stupid thing really. He asked me to move my cloth from the place we used to dry our cloth (ampaian, i dunno what people call it in English LOL). So i said to him there was a lot of space. I don't want to write this stuff long, personally i think its quite stupid, or to be precise HE IS STUPID. The things that he would do to his nephew, just prove how mental he is.
I obviously take a very smart decision, requested him to pay up RM700 (despite already spend up a total of almost RM2.5k)and i told him i will get out of the house. I just a day, i moved out to a new place. There are a few things that happened, like he throws out my stuff (my tools and my client) out from the house despite i already told i will pick up my stuff on monday because i have to settle some stuff about the new place, but he throws it all out on saturday, lucky i got some friends that could help me to pickup my stuff, but some of my tools are broken.
There is karma, so i do believe in some way or the other, god will punish whoever have done wrong to me. especially my father, and remy. Be it in life problem or health problem. so let's just forget about happened and let god deal with them later on.
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while this all is going on in my life. i should thank a very special person that who was with me when i was facing all of these problems.it was the person who is responsible for me writing this blog. My ex, faiqah.
despite my hatred towards her, she is actually an awesome person. And the stuff that she did during this time just made me remember why i love her in the beginning. Sure she did some awful stuff to me back then, but then again she was still too young, and i don't think she could avoid doing some mistake in her life.
we are now on 'not contacting each other' again. man... i really dont have any idea on what is up on her mind. when we were close i did said to her i know she is just using me (well she just broke up with her boyfriend) and i know this all was not real. i ask almost everyday. And her answer was always the same, "no, and im not using you". until 1 day, she just stop txting me. i was patience, until some time i ask her again honestly why she is acting that way.
she said we are 2 people that is living in a different world... (and the txt goes on). Basically what she is telling me that we would never be together. In her life, it would always be this word, 'want', 'choose'. For example i want him to be my boyfriend, i choose to be with him.
my life? i understand that life is something that we cant control. we are facing something that is uncontrollable, so just chill, rilex and go with the flow. And my plan was trying to get comfortable with her again, talking, and maybe one day meet again. The future, well. i rest it to god hands, if she's not fated to be with me i can accept it. But i have faith people with good intentions will never go wrong, im quite positive my intentions towards her are as legit as it could be.
with her its not like that, she prefer a boyfriend who plays some musical instrument, or write poems or books. She like a romantic guy who can play love songs for her and etc.. and im nothing like that =_=
compare this (the boyfriend that she prefers)...
and some of the stuff she said hurt me.. its like im just not worthy for the likes of her. she could love any stranger. but me? NEVER.
so im giving what she wants. i don't contact her anymore. Probably she is happy now. My feelings? does it even matter?
Now let's talk about the new beginning.
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It was hard at first, new situation, new surroundings, new peoples..
Camera plays a huge roll in my job, i need to take pictures to show to my client. The only thing that i could scavenge from the stuff that i bring is only a webcam. so tried it out on the day i found it.
there was not a lot of job, so i did any job that i could do at that moment. i have a lot of pending work, dig out the spare parts, and i finish whatever i could do.
this was slay hustler psp, only some repair.
just a mixture of my stuff and my client stuff.
i found the buffer and the paste compound.
ipod touch spare parts.
i scavenge some more, and i found an old handy-cam. i thought at first i could use it :P
well during this hard time we have to use what ever we have at hands.
And look at quality :)
"err... is this a bad time to go to the toilet?" :P
well you can see the rest of the pics in my facebook album. :)
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New beginnings.
well people started to send their psp again, not much. but i could get some money out of it to buy some stuff.
this 1 arrive when i was not at home.
pictures of me cleaning up my airbrush.
i manage to get some money. so i bought myself a table. :P
i think japanese people use this to put sushi on top of it, im just being creative, i use it to put my stuff like my phones and etc.
repairs..
my beloved wii~~~
my new station :)
"in the jungle, the mighty jungle, the dragon sleeps tonite" - sing using lion king song tempo LOL
this one, swapping the PSP3000 housing into PSP2000 parts.
teardown the parts.
some psp that i have to post later on~
the following pics are from my trip to temerloh, very memorable trip, first time ever i was involve from the beginning until the end of the wedding ceremony.
ikan patin! :P
fun's over. back to work :D
finish and ready for posting.
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And that's wrap for all repairs work. now lets see a glimpse of whats coming in the future. i have always said i wish to push modding into another level. 3D drawing courtesy hisyam aka pakmeonsepet :D.
now this isn't the final design, its just a rough sketch. a new design will be uploaded soon.
here is another project. :)
so look forward on the next entry, a lot of modding work for PSP and etc. i will try to explain it as detail as possible. im sorry if this entry contain very few information, there was a lot of pictures to be uploaded.
again like usual, thank you for your time dropping by here. im not good english, but i tried my best. do comment for any question :)
not forgetting a huge shout out for mr.zaini abdullah from http://malaysiapspmodder.blogspot.com/ that has been helping me a lot. i will write more about this on the next entry :).
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